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Pure proximity, careless compromises, utmost understandings, highest hopes, selfless sacrifices, sharing shoulders, wonderful words, gorgeous gifts, touching touches, extreme emotions, flawless feelings. All these words and many more accumulated together gives the definition of love, or is that what we perceive? In the books and movies they show that love is selfless and the love struck couple is ready to do anything for each other without negligible expectations. However, the question is how practical that is today? Practical love as can be seen in the surroundings gives a totally different picture. We see a couple fighting because she says “I did so much for you, but you didn’t have time for me”, where he says “and what about the chocolates and gifts I gave to you”. This is just a hypothetical example but it can be generalized. A guy leaves smoking bud cause she asked him to and now he can say that I did it for love. He says I do not like you mingling with your office guy friends; she quits and can say I did it for love. Yah, I know you guys going to think what a depraved thinking! However, if you dig deep in your life you’ll find so many incidences exactly on the similar lines to what I’ve said. Yah, right, and you’ve few examples which you can quote as very selfless. Not true. If you see those examples mindfully you’d see that you had some, even if it was minute, small expectations or selfish intentions. For example, to please her more or to make her happy and you know the reason of doing it. So then what do I believe in?? I am very agnostic about it. I know that we generate all the thoughts from our minds and we create cravings, we chase them, if we get what we want we are happy (or at least we say we are) or suffer. The Buddha said, “Repeated emotional reactions to feelings gradually nourish our ego”. So when I’m aware that I’m generating all the feelings or thoughts, including love or as we call it, how can I believe in it? Nevertheless, then I cannot explain the unbounded joy or equally painful sorrow, amidst of my awareness. This is what Venerable Bhante H Gunaratana has to say about love. “The loving-kindness that we want to cultivate is not an ordinary love as it is understood in everyday application. When you say, "I love such-and-such a person" or "such-and-such a thing", for instance, what you really mean is that you desire that particular person's appearance, behavior, ideas, voice, or overall attitude; either towards you in particular or towards life in general. If that person changes the things you like very much in him or her you may decide that you do not love him or her. When your tastes, whims and fancies or that of the other person change, then you would not say "I love so-and-so". In this love-hate duality you love one and hate another. You love now and hate later. You love when you wish and hate when you wish. You love when everything is smooth and rosy and hate when anything goes wrong with the relationship between you and the other person or thing. If your love changes from time to time, place to place and situation to situation in this fashion then what you call "love" is not true loving-kindness but lust, greed, or desire--not love by any means.” << These thoughts were taken from Here.

Beautiful snow or weather outside, favorite slow songs inside. Why this combination is always successful to make me think about romance or may be just wonder why I should not be in a steady relationship. There is a beautiful fountain just across my apartment. I can easily see those idle benches amidst of wonderful yellow flowers and equally nice small green plants calling me loudly with someone whom I cherish the moments. The moments are so beautiful that without saying anything everything should be said and done. However, then what amazes and intrigues me, that I am not equally compassionate for everyone. I want to be like Mr. Everything just for her. I want to make sure that I am exactly what she wants and give everything for her. Just dream to take care of her like softest of words and the best of the pure feelings. However, with many of others else I am Mr. Rude. A tough nut to crack. Some people just irritate me, before they speak anything my negative tone is set and now if they say a bit least out of line, they are out of the window. Then I am sorry and my compassion outgrows for them. I do say that intentions matter, actions don’t. However, words should be only used when you mean them, and practice of using harsh words should be dropped. I am a very compassionate person; I cannot see anybody suffering or on the loosing side even if they are my staunchest ill wishers. Moreover, I am happy to join others success and happiness. Nevertheless, question remains where is equanimity? The day I came back from Vipassana, I was so balanced and calm, I had compassion for everyone without condition. Soon with the time I’ve lost it. After saying this all, I think two things hold the truth, one- people are like a jackfruit, thorny outside but sweet inside; second: I’d always have the best compassion for that girl, unconditional.

I saw two worth mentioning things today: one is David Mackay’s Homepage and another the movie What women want?. The former is a maestro in statistics in neural networks and his website just explains about that person. Why is it worth mentioning cause I’d like to be him one day. Just not cause he knows neural networks but the way he’s organized his life. The movie: wont comment on the movie. I think it was OK. The real thing that made me think was “what if someone really has power to know what a women thinks?” . I might be prejudiced, but I think it would be really tough to be in that person’s shoes. First he will get so irritated with the fact that a girl is saying something totally different than what she is thinking. Second he will be amazed to see how woman can show what they want to even if that really doesn’t coincide with their thinking. No offenses, I am being judgmental based on what I’ve read and experienced.

Such is the irony of life, so many words, thoughts, worries, pictures, dreams, love or hate feelings, and the things only our brain knows are constantly wandering thru our mind but we (read non-writers) cannot type them out. When I read or see something really beautiful or equally painful so many lines just pass thru but I am helpless when I take the keyboard in my hands. For example, the other day, photographers were explaining their photos from the Iraq war on the History channel, which, I think, were one of the most touching scenes I’ve seen after Bowling for Columbine. I felt so much to write all my thoughts on both the occasions as both the times my friends and I had some good conversations. So many bizarre things have happened with me till this day I feel I can write a book out of it, no pun intended. May be I will someday. However, until then I will keep blogging. Some hot topics on which I can write loads of stuff on are love, religion, America and myself. The thing I don’t like about blogs is the length of the post. If I’m going to write I will write really big and then blogs don’t look good. Anyway, I should find some or the other way. I think this is enough for today. Nevertheless, about the Iraq war I think no war is justified and a man must really be stone hearted to order his troops to kill some guys for the reasons unknown. Moreover, if he doesn’t want to think about others he can think about his own troops. Many guys of these troops are very young and they didn’t join defense forces to go to a war. Many of them wanted better life and free education. What can be worse than one killing his or her own people by asking them to kill others just in the name of the country and without telling them the reasons? He is no better than Hitler, however at least Hitler’s people knew what they were doing. For more stuff like this go to Michael Moore's website. Let the entertainers of Hollywood boo him at the Oscars, at least, HE TALKS SENSE and the truth, unlike his fellow american, Mr. Bush.

BBC - Religion & Ethics - Homosexuality and marriage Wonderful article!! The argument handling is awesome; it should give answers to all the hypocrites. As per my views I do not see any problem with same-sex marriage and I surely think that people are hypocrites when they deny others their rights. : "The question Should same-sex couples committed to a long-term and monogamous relationship be allowed to marry? Why should marriage be regulated at all? Marriage has been one of the fundamental organising principles of human society since history began. It is important to the future of society because it provides the best social structure within which to bear and raise children. Most people accept that marriage and family are key institutions in society, and something that it is appropriate for the law to regulate. 'In a real sense, there are three partners to every civil marriage: two willing spouses and an approving State.' Marshall CJ, 18 November 2004"

Hey all... I had decided to post a blog whenever my google pop-up blocker will block 3000 pop-ups. So it did yesterday. Ohh man so many pop-ups...thanks google we have this efficient pop-up blocker. All right...that's it!